Nira : "Waalaikumsalam. Eh, Zir, result keluar dah ah, brapa kau dpt??"
Zira : "WHATTT??!KELUAR DAH?!!"
Nira : "Awu, keluar dah. Aku kana message ah."
Zira : "Awh, aku mna ada meregister."
Nira : "Ohh."
Zira : "So, berapa kau dpt?"
Nira : "Hehehe, cuba teka berapa"
The conversation continued but you don't have to know. My mom's friend who is from the M.O.E told mom that the result will be spread around schools probably around 3PM. So, mom messaged Sister Feena who was at UBD that time. Ina and Emma called me, a lot messaged and even more on MSN (-_-") Sister Feena came by around 3:30PM. When we arrived there, it was still the PMB's result posted. Ohh, at the same time, Auntie Fridah and Syukri came. Auntie said that Syukri got 8 O's but he aint believing it. Believe it, dude! Grr, I soo want to kill you!!! Hahahaha, kidding ;)
Anyways, we waited till 4:15PM, still no update. So, we went to IDEAL to buy ice cream Gelato. Pfft, I was soo nervous that I couldn't to anything right! Well, almost anything. I didn't get inside the wrong car. You see;
- Sister Feena told me to buy her a $5 B.Mobile easi card and I bought her the DST!
- She wanted a Green Tea drink, I bought her an Ice Tea.
- Lastly, she wanted chocolate Gelato but I bought her the Fererro.
She wasn't angry though, hehehe and lucky for me, she gave me the $5 easi card and I don't have to pay her back. Yeayy. Anyways, these were the thoughts that hit my head on each subjects;
Before that, as most of you may already know, I did a last-minutes revision only. The longest is for about 1hr and 30 minutes and the least is, err, 3-5 minutes, maybe but mostly I used up 30 minutes I don't know why I can't be so damn serious during the O'level season! I only took Maths, Economics, C.Science and Geography tuition. We couldn't find any Computer tuition. Syukri's mom told us where Syukri has his Computer tuition but its too far away. Then, I quitted my Geography and Economics tuition. C.Science tuition ended as C.Science exam started. So did Maths and fever struck me during my O'level exams. Fever = Loss of energy. Fever + exam + me = No studying. Maybe a little. Come on, people, when you have fever, you got headaches and bla-bla-bla.
I.R.K
Paper 1 was hard! I mean, I only had the chance to read a few topics and only like, 2 questions were out! I felt soo worried =( Fortunately, I was more serious in paper 2 and it was easy. So, my guess was I could atleast score a C6. That's what I hoped.
B.Melayu
The karangan was a two-thumbs-up. I managed to finished it before the exam finished in 5 minutes time and my words were exactly 350. For paper two, it was the opposite! In two sections, I managed to finished all except for one questions but on ringkasan, I couldn't even make it through halfway since the time is up. I cried a little. If I got a D in my B.Melayu, even though if I got like 5 O's, I'll definitely have to repeat. Sister Feena's friend had that fate. She/he got 5 O's but they were all English subjects, so, she/he repeated and to think ringkasan marks was 40!
Geography
MCQ was fun and easy to answer but what happened in my I.R.K 1 also happened in my Geography 2. I didn't have enough time to cover up the whole Form 4 and 5 topics and I only find 2 questions easy to answer plus, the friggin time wasn't enough! Damn! Can't they makes 2hr 30min into 2hr 45min?? I got a hinch the I'll fail this subject. Sorry to disappoint you, teacher. Those words were on my head alla time. She told me that she expect me to get a B or a marks of 70+(C5).
Economics
MCQ was also fun and easy and paper 2 was also easy but again, not enough time. Grrrr... They should really give another 15 minutes for the subjects where a lot of students can't manage to finish but I felt that I could get an O for this one.
C.Science
MCQ was okay. Paper 2 made me go WTH?? I mean, I kinda had a really hard time answering for C.Science in Q.E and I only got 56% but this was even more hard! Aiyaiyai. To be honest, I only had the chance to read about Radioactivity, Acids, The human eye and organ system. I did answered a lot of the questions though. Ehehe, guesses. Teacher Sharmilla messaged me, asking about the paper but I didn't replied. Just felt that I've disappointed her and also Ms.Mosh.
Computer Studies
Hahahaha, need I say more about this subject?? The paper was HARD as always. There's no MCQ to help us. Honestly, I don't remember the last time I concentrated on my Computer Studies. Erm, Form 2 or 3 probably. Hahaha, yes, I've never concentrated on Form 4 and 5. Then why I took Computer instead of POA? Because I enjoy creating my Form 3 project and I know there's another project in form 5. Plus, I love typing on computers, creating a database, answering the revisions through computers instead of writing it down and oh, the cold lab which is sometimes soo freezing(especially on my table since the breeze was flowing towards me) that I couldn't even write or move my fingers. Oh, I only have my project to help me pass in this subject but I doubt that it will give me an O.
English
English was okay. I had enough time on both papers. I knew that I could at least get a C6.
Maths
Hahaha, this one is easy to answer. The answer for the two papers were plain-plain-plain-hard and need-need-need-more-time. I took Maths tuition during the O'level exams but there's a little wee bit problem which makes it a big disaster. I lost my glasses. I always end up sitting on the back of the classes which makes me see nothing but scribbles on the whiteboard. I couldn't ask Ms. Laila a lot of questions since there are too many students calling her. Thus, it results in loss of interest and leads me to talking with a bunch of friends. **Angelic looking** For sure, I failed this subject with no problem.
So, in the end, I counted that I would most probably get only 3 O's. All this time, I'm worried. I regretted for not studying nor revising harder. I regretted for not giving my full attention in both school and tuition class. I've felt that I made my parents moneys go to waste. I didn't want to fail. I can't even imagine that! My dad was soo sure that I'll pass that he even showed the family the road on how to go to PTE Meragang. He even asked me wether I wanted a new handphone, laptop and asked what I want as a reward. He also told me that he'll give me $100 for each A's and so on for each grade (he will even give for a damn D!) but I don't care about the money. I never did. What's the use of studying hard and achieving 8 A's if you only do it for the money? My parents had already given me enough money through giving leisures, thrust funds, allowances and paying for education and other expenses. They've already spent for more than a thosands for my education fees this year. I did the Math, okay?? I wanted to make my parents proud. I wanted to succeed.
I guess I didnt really have the motivation to study hard because of my brain. I'm not saying that I'm Einstein nor super brilliant. I'm just one of the people who are a fast-learner. Since Form 1, I've often become the top 10 students. Not always though, I once got number 13, 12, 11 and Goshh!! 20?!!! I'll tell you a post about that one day. Believe me, I felt like doing suicide when I found out. Haha, kidding. Anyways, I've never worked hard since primary school. Never during the PSR, PMB and the O'levels. I did however managed to get 2A's and 3B's in PSR and the scores in PMB managed to land me in Ambitious class. The teacher once asked if I wanted to be in Science 2 class. I think a lot of 5A's were asked that questions. I know that Nira, Chung and Shaikh were asked that but we rejected. Again, I'll tell you the reason on a different post another day. Actually, the motivation of studying occured a lot of times. I even made a home-schedule for studying. People who often get their hands on my education personal book must've seen that. The thing is, those motivations just fades away quicker than a quick sand.
So, there I was, regretting a lot of things. Obviously, those regrets were just useless. Soo useless but I can't help feeling regeret. During the holidays, everytime I remembered about the O'level or someone mentioned about it, regrets kept haunting me. I prayed but that's not going too help since it has already been done. It's like praying your dead pet to be back to live. It's just plain too late. I had the chances but I took them for granted.
So, we went back to school and realized people were filling the bulletin area. It was around 4:45PM, we knew it meant that the results were out. Pfft, Sister Feena was the one who checked, do you know how much my nervous rate jumped when she was the one who checked???! She's the sister who has always prioratised education. Arghhhhhh. Uh-Oh, is she reading this? Well, I am right though. Kan?Kan?Kan, sis??
Anyways, she looked and looked and said;
"1...2...3...Hmmm..."
I was ready to be hit with disappointments and being lectured by everyone. She looked at me with serious dead eyes and said;
"You got 7, Zir! (She broadly smiled) Congrats! But I beat you though(She has to bring that up, didn't she?)You passed with 7 O's! Yeayyy!"
So, yeah, my result is 7 O's =) Alhamdullilah. I felt like crying. Smiling soo hard, in my heart, I thanked Allah. I didn't scored my Maths but I didn't failed it either. I called my parents. I couldn't talked to dad a lot since he was in a meeting. Oppps! I didn't tell him that I didn't study hard but he found out. He also found out that I had a boyfriend. Errr. He's not angry thought. Pheww!
In the end, my sickness just faded away, my moms headache just faded away. The night, we went to Asai Roslan's house for Doa Selamat. Thanks you for the congratulations family, relatives, teachers, friends and acquaintances. To Wawa, thanks for the money. Ehehe. Can you believe that his son got 14 O's?? Well, that was back in I-dont-remember-when. He's in UBD now. I don't know if he's overseas. Wow, 14. I regretted for not taking History as an extra subject. Damn, again with the regret?? Anyways, all of them talked on what I should get, bla-bla-bla. One said History. One said Law. One said Business. Bla-Bla-Bla but they all agreed in one thing which is English Literature. Never had interest in that subject.
Anyways, I do still regret for not studying hard. If I did, I know I'd do much better. I'm grateful though. I'm having another step foward. This time, I told my family the truth that I never studied hard. This time, they're helping me to feel motivated. They're helping me to have the fire in being a study-hard person and it's working already =) I'll try my best to study hard. Pray that I will, okay, readers? Hehehe, thanks.
Notes:
To those who passed, congratulations =) To those who failed, follow the motto, "Don't give up!" Who knows, maybe you'll get 8 A's for the next exam. Nothing is impossible. Just know this, you failed, doesn't mean you will always fail. As Sir Wan said;
"When you failed, it doesn't make you a failure. Just work harder."
XOXO
Zira Lee
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