I'm not okay

Fuhh, my first post after, 2 weeks? Is it? Anyways;

I'm not really in my happy mood now. I woke up, feeling quite weird and then, it hit me, I'm given a few days holiday from fasting. I NO-NO like THAT! GETIT?? Hahaha but I'll view it positively. Next, I supposedly go out and have sungkai with someone today as planned a few days earlier but he had to cancel it due to a function and again, I NO-NO like THAT! Hahaha and again, I'll view it positively. It's understandable.

Then, I have this uncomfortable feeling since sahur. I never liked this uncomfortable feeling cause everytime I sense its presence, something unwelcoming is bound to happen. Maybe I have this feeling because I've lost my locker key!!! I'm still searching for it. Exam is coming and I only have my Economics file with me. Plus, I really, really need to study. I never really have a serious revision and I'm still a procrastinator when it comes to revision but reality hits me, Form 6 isn't High School anymore. I never had a proper self-study before and I'm used to it. It was okay in High School but now, if I keep having a not proper self-study... well, you know what will happen. I had a wake up call that I need to try and force myself to study if I wanna pass. Eventhough I passed my first and second assessment, the marks are ugly. DROP DEAD UGLY and Sir. Alias made it clear that he was truly disappointed with my second assessment Economics marks.

Next, next, next, youuu. I know I've told Nira that I think I just had this crush on you and it disappeared but I realised it didn't. I guess I was just bored of waiting, so, I just move on. Some people kept saying that you feel the same but I need actions not words. Yeah, you do act it out a bit but it isn't enough to convince me. You disappeared into the thin air. Whooooshh! When you want something, you need to speak out and if you don't, you're going to lose. Despite the differences.

Next, next, next, another youuuuu, apakan niii? I'm confused (-_-") Seriously confused. Oh, well, lets just wait and see what happens on Tuesday. Oh, and last Thursday, the BSP talk was cool and I have another reason to love that day, nothing to do with BSP though. Hahaha. Sigh. The BSP talk was for upper sixth but PRS members were involve in helping. I didn't really like it when the scholars think we were all upper sixth students. Hahaha. I was like, whispering to Achie, "Kami lower sixth baaaa..." Hahaha, no biggie. Nothing wrong being called an upper sixth but I don't have the rights to be called an upper sixth.... yet. Eissehh. Hahaha.

XOXO

Zira Lee