My own sentences of wisdom

Every time you feel like bending your knees and cry in the corner, it does not mean you're weak. Every time, you force yourself to smile but crying inside, it does not mean you're faking it. As you cry your eye balls out, it cleans the dusts and with all the dust gone, you can see things clearly. You can see the sunshine brighter than before. You can see what was your mistake. Thus, learning from it. You're not weak as you are able step up and move on. You're not weak as you can still jump and laugh with your friends, enjoying your life. You're not faking as you are able to smile with the beautiful things in life. If it was me, I'd cry my heart out at first but on the next day, I'll smile to the world. Tears may still form but it will slowly disappear. Those fading stars will come out again, only brighter and bigger. It's only life and don't waste it.

XOXO,

Sincerely,

Zira Lee

Still here

Tomorrow marks the 17th school day. So far, school has been totally fun =) Yesterday was PTEM Open day and I tell you this, we were more busy than I've actually expected! We started off by singing the school song at the Amphitheatre around 12:30ish. Afterwards, went to the Counselling room. The short video clip them guys made on "Life at PTEM" was AWESOME! Some school came with buses and we were like; "That's so not expected!" Guess the advertising on the radio and newspaper really worked out well. One of the school visiting was SMB. I wanted to go and tour guided them but I was in the midst of tour guiding some Serasa students but again, I don't mind =)

The fun thing about tour guiding was the proud feeling of our school and the fact that we are able to go into the restricted classes such as the Art Room, only allowed for Art students. Edna explained to one of the Serasa students who planned to take Art. I tell ya this, if you plan to be an art student, you gotta get good English and you won't just be drawing things like back in Form 5, you're gonna have to remember backgrounds of famous artist and do essays with 1,000 words. I used to think Art was E.A.S.Y!

Oh, shoot, typing of art, I just remembered, I have EAS Language group work and I'm in charge of the drawings! What to do? Everytime there's a drawing involved, my GP girls would instantly give it to me. Hahaha but there is no complains, I mean, I love doing artsy stuff ;)

It's still January and a LOT has happened. O'level results are coming soon and juniors are expected. PTEM is one GREAT school! ;)

XOXO

Zira Lee

Abandoned for awhile

Whoa, I haven't blogged for quite some time, eh? 6th of September was my last post. I didn't realised that I was gone for that long! (-__-") 3 months and a day to be exact! I've been busy with school and life, so, yeah. Not just that, I'm kinda bored with blogging as well. Maybe I'll blog about what I've been involving myself in when I feel like it. Updates for now are;

1. I'm 17 now! ;)
2. I have a not-so-new-love-life which I keep mysterious. I've been secretive about it and for now, in school, the only person who has always been updated with my love-life is my best friend. Note to you; in PTEM, I have more than one best friend. So, try not to figure out which best friend I'm talking about ;)
3. My pet in Pet Society is drop-dead poor. I may not celebrate Christmas but my pet does. Who knew Christmas trees and ornaments would be not-so-cheap. Talk about Economic crisis!
4. Oh, it's school holiday!
5. I'm going to KL this 27th! Not with the relatives like last year but with the family! Yehaaaaa! 20 more days to go. Sigh. That sounds so looooonggg. So, dear peeps, if you guys are going to do some outings, please, please do it before the 27th. I don't wanna miss it!
6. I'm going to be PTEM senior next year! Gotta start being serious, gosh!

XOXO

Zira Lee

A small town Filipino girl

Have you guys listened to Charice Pempengco? She has such powerful jaw-dropping voice for a 16 year old! Beautiful voice, ya know. A girl with a very poor background and bitter past. I viewed her on Oprah and she was amazing, plus innocent and adorable! She deserves to be praised =) unlike some current singers. I dislike singers who sounded great in their videos and radio but the opposite when live. It just made us wonder if there was any technical changes occured.

XOXO

Zira Lee

I'm not okay

Fuhh, my first post after, 2 weeks? Is it? Anyways;

I'm not really in my happy mood now. I woke up, feeling quite weird and then, it hit me, I'm given a few days holiday from fasting. I NO-NO like THAT! GETIT?? Hahaha but I'll view it positively. Next, I supposedly go out and have sungkai with someone today as planned a few days earlier but he had to cancel it due to a function and again, I NO-NO like THAT! Hahaha and again, I'll view it positively. It's understandable.

Then, I have this uncomfortable feeling since sahur. I never liked this uncomfortable feeling cause everytime I sense its presence, something unwelcoming is bound to happen. Maybe I have this feeling because I've lost my locker key!!! I'm still searching for it. Exam is coming and I only have my Economics file with me. Plus, I really, really need to study. I never really have a serious revision and I'm still a procrastinator when it comes to revision but reality hits me, Form 6 isn't High School anymore. I never had a proper self-study before and I'm used to it. It was okay in High School but now, if I keep having a not proper self-study... well, you know what will happen. I had a wake up call that I need to try and force myself to study if I wanna pass. Eventhough I passed my first and second assessment, the marks are ugly. DROP DEAD UGLY and Sir. Alias made it clear that he was truly disappointed with my second assessment Economics marks.

Next, next, next, youuu. I know I've told Nira that I think I just had this crush on you and it disappeared but I realised it didn't. I guess I was just bored of waiting, so, I just move on. Some people kept saying that you feel the same but I need actions not words. Yeah, you do act it out a bit but it isn't enough to convince me. You disappeared into the thin air. Whooooshh! When you want something, you need to speak out and if you don't, you're going to lose. Despite the differences.

Next, next, next, another youuuuu, apakan niii? I'm confused (-_-") Seriously confused. Oh, well, lets just wait and see what happens on Tuesday. Oh, and last Thursday, the BSP talk was cool and I have another reason to love that day, nothing to do with BSP though. Hahaha. Sigh. The BSP talk was for upper sixth but PRS members were involve in helping. I didn't really like it when the scholars think we were all upper sixth students. Hahaha. I was like, whispering to Achie, "Kami lower sixth baaaa..." Hahaha, no biggie. Nothing wrong being called an upper sixth but I don't have the rights to be called an upper sixth.... yet. Eissehh. Hahaha.

XOXO

Zira Lee

Augustians

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO;

APIL [9th August]

JUDY CHIENG [18th August]

NAS ADANAN [19th August]

MR. CHRIS ROCKWELL [19th August]

May God bless you all with prosperity and longevity ;)

XOXO

Zira Lee

Just an update

Economics test was... Well, I just guessed all the answers without looking at the questions. I seriously did not have the mood. It was MCQ anyways, so, who knows, maybe I get lucky and some of my jumbled up questions are correct. Mr.Boyce had to go and he divided the class into 3 groups. We had to mix with the other ELite class. Lynna and I were trying to figure out this poem which Mr.Boyce gave to us earlier that lesson. Oh well..

Here is the thing. Dear friends from anywhere who reads this;

I, Zira Lee, am no longer in-love or crushing to any of my old crushes nor flings since weeks ago. I just felt like informing you guys that.

So, am I crushing on anyone new right now? That is for you to figure it out. ;)

Tomorrow is gonna be a very busy day... Waittasec, is there a football match going on? Cause I can hear some excited cheering, squeling and screaming from here.

"Don't spit on me and shame yourself, cause you wish you were someone else."

XOXO, Zira Lee

(+) & (-)

I have always tried to think positive things about people. Everybody. Eventhough if I dislike you, I'd still have something good to say about you or at least try to think of something good about you. I'm an optimist. Every time I act like a pessimist, I always turn it around by being an optimist. I believe in miracles and I do believe in possibilities but on the latest thing that I truly didn't give up due to being an over-optimist, I ended up in pain. So, that's when I realise, it's good being an optimist and a positive thinker but at the same time, I also need to be a pessimist sometimes because thinking of negative things are not always bad as it puts you in reality.

"You had a good girl, good girl but didn't know how to treat her."

XOXO

Zira Lee

Usu Kudin's wedding[09 August 2009]

Wish both of you will love each other till the end and hopefully, your marriage will last and stand strong forever =) Amiin.

Usu Kudin's family colour is blue. We arrived at Usu Kudin's house around 11AM. Very, very hottt (-_-") We decided to go to his room. We are his beloved nieces and nephews. Hahahaha. We ALL are. It was fun hanging in his cold room. =p





Our family brooch

This is the first time I experienced on having this type of brooch. Hahaha.



Nonetheless, we, ofcourse still had to go outside at the hot weather since we were the guests greeters.

We then had to go to Kg.Parit, which is the wife's house. Soo far awayyy~ and our driver got lost! TskTskTsk. Hahahaha but we managed to find our way and arrived on time ;) After the ceromony ended, we hanged at Fid'z house and watched The Grudge 3.

Fidz, what were you thinking? =p



P/S;

I'll tag the pictures in facebook when I have the time =)

There's a "How to have a happy marriage life" card hanging on Usu's door and I really like this one;

"3. Don't yell at each other unless the house is on fire."

XOXO

Zira Lee

Last Sunday

The day before Sunday, which was Saturday, Zita told me that she wanted to come to my house to revise Economics but she also wanted my dear cousin, Fidz, to tag along. However, my dearly beloved intan permai buah hati cousin ani is too lazy to even come to my house! Aiyaaaaa. So, we ended coming to her house. Did we study? Not exactly. HAHAHA. I did, however, managed to finish my ELite homework. We all ended up eating, watching TV, having a girl convo and more eating. Hahahaha.

Phew. I held too much stuffs, didn't I?

It was real fun though =)

"Never listened, to all my close friends, when they told me, you were no good."

XOXO

Zira Lee

Listen to me;

To be honest, it did sting and I felt being backstabbed but overall, I don't care. I know you readers may be confused but I'm pointing this news to some particular people[s]. Again, it did sting and stabbed my heart but not strong enough to break nor tear my heart. Your heart-stabbing knife was so-so tumpul =) I wanted to cry, actually, you know, to feel better. I wanted to cry not because of missing you but because I regret not ending it first and choosing you over another guy. I was like, "Damn it, come on and fall tears!" but it didn't fell. No tears wanted to fall. I guess God was telling me that it isn't worth to cry for you. This did not happened once nor twice, it was more. I usually end up looking at the mirror and smiled cause it hit me, I didn't lose anything.

"The hurt start to fade, and then that's when I knew, I was through with you!"

"I'm only 16. I still have a long way to go..."

XOXO, Zira Lee

Notification

To Fifah;

I'm so sorry I can't come to your BBQ party =( No transport. Actually, there is transport but like, all of my family members who can drive and can give transportation don't know where you live and it was too late, meaning, too dark to search for your house. Aiyaaa...

and,

I'm also sorry for the fact I can't join you PRS peeps for tomorrow's activity at Pusat Ehsan. My uncle's getting married tomorrow (^_^)

XOXO

Zira Lee

Changes

I had a new haircut last, last friday. It was quite like a random haircut cause I wasn't sure what style I wanted. I was just bored with my hair. The result was awesome =)

Then, just yesterday, I bought myself a new pair of school shoes. Well, my last school shoes, I only wore them for 29 days. The PRS head of discipline kindly told me that it got alot of attention for the fact that it's heels. Some told me that I have to since PRS is one of the role-models students. Blalalala. Anyhoo, I love my new shoes =)

So, I'm changing YOU like I've changed my hair style and I'm changing HIM like I've changed my shoes.

"Let it change the past that we had..."

"You seriously should talk less and act more..."

XOXO, Zira Lee

I should sleep now

It's 2 in the morning. Why am I not sleeping when I'm supposed to? Well, I've just finished editing my GP presentation for tomorrow today. We actually had this presentation thingy last week but Mr. Chris explained that the 2 best pairs are going to present again the next week, which is today. Well, any Mr. Chris students would know about this. Huargh. I surely didn't expect we were picked (-_-") How did I end up doing this late? Well, it's a last minute thing, hahaha. I mean, I did the previous presentation last minute, so, I think I'm gonna be okay later on. Let's just hope I won't be yawning alot during presenting. That would be uber embarrassing! Okay, just to be on the clear side, I did my presentation editing at 11PM [FYI, I had to make Shepherd pie for today's sale] but, unfortunately for me, the computer got sleepy and a problem came up causing me to lose all of my work. Nice, huh? Thank Goodness I saved last week presentation on the pendrive, therefore, I didn't have to do it from scratch but of course, I had to do the editing all over again. Oh, speaking of the sale, an information to all PTEM student, PRS is having another sale but this time, it's food and book sale. You guys better notice the flyer's we tacked on the notice board, Nas and I skipped our precious lunch for that and lemme tell you this, sticking flyer's isn't easy as it sounds, especially when you're not allowed to stick it to just anywhere. My feet's are a bit swollen. Hahahaha.

XOXO

Zira Lee

Sii Kyrul

Someone just turned 19 today~

Namely Kyrul Azmi(22nd July)

SURPRISE!!!

May God bless you with longevity and prosperity. Hopefully, you'll get your dream results for this upcoming A'Level. Wish you and Bash will stay together till death.

To the planners, especially Bibie, you guys did a good job! **Thumbs up!**

Kelvin and Harris, tag the photos soon, yeah!! =D

XOXO

Zira Lee

B.I.N.G.O night

So, after the day of the BBQ night, we continued our family time at Faiz's house. There was no barbequed chicken though [Alaaa] since it wasn't a BBQ night. It was BINGO night! =D Hahahaha.

I didn't win any chips more =(

But I did managed to win 2 prizes though =D

However, my brother managed to win 4/5 and my sister managed to win 5/6 (o-O")

Hahahaha, congrats to them.

Fidz, did you guys used the onions and flour that you won dahhh?? =p =p I bet your pepsi is all in your tummies and excreted already. Hahaha.

I can't wait for another BINGO night =)

"Hahaha. You are so evil tonight, Zir!"

Lil Fidz

P/S;

Taylor Lautner, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! Hahahaha. ♥♥♥♥♥

XOXO

Zira Lee

BBQ night

Last Saturday night marks the BBQ night at Fidz house. Hahaha, that sounds sort of formal. Anyways, I was really crazy. I'm okay with it though. My craziness isn't the type that offends people but instead, makes them laugh and saying "Okay kau kh?" , these are the pictures;

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FIDZ, tag the picture, yeah! Hahaha =p I'll tag the bingo night pictures A.S.A.P. Thanks, love ya!

Alai Nina then told us to come down, shouting "Main lotto!!" I was like, staring at Fidz and asked, "Isn't that, like main judi??" and my replial was "Hahahaha, antah ehh.." Hahahaha. The kids just called them lotto when actually it was bingo. We had fun playing and the house was totally noisy! I won manisan syrup laaa =p My little brother was under a lucky star that night. It's like, every card he holds, he definitely bingo it.

XOXO

Zira Lee

What happened?

I'm asking myself what happened. Why did it suddenly disappeared? (o_O") How can I view the pictures nowww? They're my favourites =( Aiyayoiyoiiiiii... Now, I don't have the mood to edit my GP...

XOXO

Zira Lee

BIRTHDAYS

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS TO:

YIENA ALI(1st July)

BASH MAIDIN(9th July)

MEL IBRAHIM(9th July)

FIRDAUSI ASYURA(10th July)

MOHD LUTFI(12th July)

SULTAN HAJI HASSANAL BOLKIAH(15th July)

Sorry, no pictures. Hehehehe. Too lazy. Anyways, may God bless you all with longevity and prosperity =)

XOXO

Zira Lee

Now,wasn't that nice?

Event: Mel's birthday surprise

Venue: The Amphitheatre

Time: Lunch time, 12:05 PM - 1:00 PM

Date: 11th July 2009, Saturday

Obviously, it was fun =D Since my period after that was PS, I didn't have to be in a hurry to get into class.

The chocolate cake was nyummy but I didn't get the chance to get the scrumptious looking cupcakes =( Hahahaha.

So, me and Nir went to the library. We had "Nira & Zira talk" I was pretty bummed about something because we saw this thing even more cleared but then, he came in and I've totally forgotten what we were talking about.

Hahahaha. I don't get it. Why do people think I rejected you? Did you think I rejected you? I did not. I repeat, I DID NOT. Some said, I rejected you indirectly. No, I didn't! Hell no!!! I should know if I've rejected you!! You should know that you were the one who walked away. In your view, you may think you're letting me go to another guy, to make me happier but in my view, you walked away. I admit that I had a stronger feeling for the other guy but I was in the midst of evaluating both of you and as weeks passed by, I realised my feeling for you were becoming clearer and stronger.

You were the one who was there when I was depressed. You were there when I needed someone to talk to (aside from Nira and my sister. Haha) You were there to make my night fun even though it was annoying when you called me at 2 in the morning. Adaka patut~ Hahahaha. You were there to abolish my worries but I was too blind to see. Gosh, they weren't kidding about "Love is blind." Hahahaha. It hurts to suddenly know you had a girlfriend. WoWeee. Hahahahaha but you're single now. **WinkWink** Hahahahaha, kes crack dah aku ani. Don't mind me readers~ but if there's a chance, I'll take it. I'm not begging for a chance, just praying for a miracle. Hahahaha, apakan??? Again, I'm crack. I think I had too much chocolate truffles!

XOXO

Zira Lee